As it usually happens, I am not the best one to give lessons about BDSM; there are lots of people than knows more than I. But at least, and while avoiding facts that I don’t have the right to reveal, I’ll share my long travel from curiosity to full time slave, and after some months, the long, hard one back to freedom. It is funny, but the dress in the picture has a lot to do with it *smiles*.
A little after joining SL I discovered the thriving D/s and BDSM comunities, but since I don’t like any kind of pain at RL and couldn’t call my husband “Master” with a straight face, I was mainly curious about it.
But two things conspired against me… knowledge and greed.
I’ve always been an avid reader of erotic literature, but too shy to buy them in libraries… but well, there is Internet. Even so, it is really hard to find good, long stories that have the right mixture of plot and scorching sex. In one of my searchs I found the free BDSM Library, and even if most of the stories there are too little or too much, some of them hit the right spot *giggles*. One of my all times favorites is Georgetta, the bet, by The Dolphin; soft bondage, some unreal points, but highly erotic and somewhat romantic.
So, I already had some knowledge… and the greed comed when slaves talked to me in third person. It sounded silly, but it stirred something inside me anyway, and maked me wonder.
One day I was randomly jumping from place to place when a guy asked me if I wanted to be his Mistress; I had no idea of how my soberly tailored dress and handbag could had triggered that kind of question (the answer is I had just ported to Sensation’s shop, but I didn’t discover it until some days after it :-p), but instead of the usual kind rejection, I confesed I had no idea about it and that whould like to learn.
He was a switch (somebody that can actuate as Master/Dominant/Top or slave/submissive/bottom), so he accepted to take me as a submissive and teach me, while keeping our relation in secret. The sad fact is that he wasn’t very interested on me, so even if I got some good advice (the best one was to read Easton-Hardy’s “The Bottoming Book” and “The Topping Book”), I still was a virgin about submisiveness.
And I kept that way until a Mistress was attracted by some daring phrase on my profile, that I don’t ever remember now.
*** Next: The hidden slave ***
This is fascinating, love, and *so* hot!
I can’t imagine you in that world, so this is tremendously eye-opening…. I can’t wait for more!
I’d go on “Marthe Blau”‘s books if you like well written erotic literature. Also, “Historie d’O” is a true classic and a basic for every kind of introduction to the world of BDSM…
I guess I’m not that shy when I go to the bookstore :P
Oh, never forget De Sade, tough I do not like his writings that much ;)
London, you keep surprising me, as this is a side of you I hadn’t expected at all. Even if it’s totally not my world, I’m looking forward to reading about your experiences with it. Maybe I can finally understand why people are so fascinated by it ;)
*hugs* <- which I forgot to send yesterday ;)
Oh I can’t wait either. I briefly touched on that world too and I’d love to know your experience.
Mine ended prematurely and abruptly when my mistress just vanished from SL! I can only think that something drastic must have happened in her RL.
I.. also touched upon that world a long time ago.. and.. let’s just say.. never again. Wasn’t a very good experience. I’m just glad I got out. I know everyone’s experiences are different, along with their motivations for being in that sort of relationship, so I try to not cast my demons on those people.
I talked to Natsumi a long time last week.. she told me how you and her met, and many details in that.. so maybe I know where this story will go, and it would be great to hear your side of it. It sounds like everything that happened happened through fate, and I’m glad that things have turned out the way they have.
I Love yah, London.. I miss yah lots, and hopefully I’ll get to see you tonight. I’ll try my hardest to be there while you are around. ::Nods, and huggles her tight, kissing her gently.::
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Thanks, Soph :-). Already published the second part, that still is mostly an apetizer, I think.
Eidur, never hear about the first, and will check. About “Story of O”, I cannot believe I saw the film once, years ago, but never tought about the book until you mentioned it; the marquis, well, I tried a pair of his relates, but he isn’t my liking.
*Hugs back Timothy*. Maybe you will understand, or maybe I’ll let you with more questions :-p. Let’s see what happens :-)
Faerie, it is interesting to know how many of us dipped in that world at SL, I imagine it is the mix and curiosity, privacity and liberty. And I so hate dissaparitions! It worries me each time I go on holidays, knowing that the ones you leave behind will wonder if something awfull happened at RL or if you simply leaved without a word.
Kat, it is good you didn’t spoil the ending of the story :-)
*smiles warmly* I love you too, and see, we met at the end, even if for little time. I am sorry my time for my SL family is so limited (as it is my sleeping one). *hugs and kisses you*
London,
I have wondered about ppl who have just disappeared from SL, have they just given up/ got board / sick / died?
I have a few SL friends who know the RL me, and they can call someone in my family to find out what has happened, if I disappear.
Actually it’s the other way around, my sister will email someone in SL that I’m ill/dead/etc.
Then they can post to my blog or my SL Profile.
As for your past, lets hear more…BSDM, It’s not a area that has really interested me to be involved in.
I’m to much an individualist to give or take control of another person.
I think what a lot of people may not realise is that being submissive is not necessarily the same as being a “slave”.
Some subs are true slaves who are not allowed to speak without permission and their total online time is controlled by their master. This is what I found most people think of when you say “Submissive”.
Other subs are more………well I will quote someone else I read recently who said that their relationship was one where she (the sub) was an intelligent and free spirited individual who just happened to be pliabe to her Mistress’s will.
An intelligent and free spirited individual who just happened to be pliabe to her Mistress’s will.
If you add “loving” to “Mistress’s will” then that’s the relationship we had (before she suddenly vanished without a word). A relationship based on friendship, mutual attraction and care for each other. Not your stereotypical Dom/sub relationship perhaps, but a very fulfilling one all the same.
If you’ve ever whispered in someone’s ear: “Take me home and have your wicked way with me” with a lustful husky breath, then you were, briefly, being a submissive to their dominance.
It doesn’t have to involve humiliation.
Shockwave, I wrote a post,long ago about trying to balance the risk of exposure affecting your RL loved ones with the need to make your SL partners sure you have really dissapeared, instead of leaving (have fun trying to find it if you are interested, they are only 92 :-p).
BDSM is a complex matter, even if my own story with it is pretty shallow and simple; I’ll wait until I end the series to discuss it *smiles*.
Of course, that doesn’t means you don’t talk about your own experiences and ideas, like Faerie’s comment (btw, thanks for it, I really should had deepened on the submissive relations :-).
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